Assalamualaikum. My name is Ahmad Fikri. I am from Malaysia. I been Islam in my entire life but never follow or truss the religion. This is because I am Islam by blood (my father and mother are Islam). I never do bad thing entire life until one day that make me feel something is missing in my life.
A few day before Hari Raya Haji, my father die due to heart attack. I never like my father because he used to torture my mentally and my psychologically because he used to think us (his kids) are the reason the marriage fail. He even torture my mother until she broke her spine when I was 7 years old which is during pre divorce. The reason I hate my father because at that time even I cry to beg to stop, he keep doing it like a freaking mad men (my mother fine, alive and can walk today even from the injury she get).
I need a change. My father dead and I do not want to be bad child. Please help me