This feeling of being lonely and all those memories is tearing me apart. I feel like i have got nothing to loose and just want to die. If it is not for Allah and my Family i would have been already dead. I loved her like she is the whole world to me and expected just a half of it from her.. I always wanted to marry her and become father of her children. We even had names for our unborn baby girl. We often go to the seashore and hold each others hands where she will say that her love for me is greater that these oceans altogether and i reply back that my love for her is greater that the skies.. These are some among the tons of memories i still have about her.. Its not going anywhere.
Whenever someone advice me to forget her it feels good for couple of days and again i am getting so depressed and lonely.
I always said to lot of my friends who take girls for granted and just dump them after having fun with them. .to not to do that and its wrong. I always advice them to have a good.. true.. honest relationship with them.. but they often laugh at me and mock me..
Now i am feeling like i wish i were one of those guyz who had just fun and no emotional feelings for the girl. I am severely depressed and just dont know what to do..
She dumped me 6 months ago saying that she is in love with her colleague..
At the early stages of our love i met her mum and asked for her and she agreed that she will get her married to me in 2 years..
Now she completely forgot everything and saying that whom her daughter is loving right now is much better than me and i am not fit for her daughter..
Now they are going to get married sooner.
I was completely shattered and still now cant believe that she did that to me.. All i am seeking is death or Allah to guide me and bless me with his mercy and give me better peace of mind. I still love her so much and i just cant forget her. Her memories, all those words,,.. she atleast say 100 "I love you" per day and now she might be saying it to him.. i just cant bear or imagine someother guy with her. We have spoken like what real husband and wife do and i always thought she will only be mine. I am from south India and always thought this is a place well known for its culture and moral values... but nowadays its not like that i believe.
please help me with getting through this i cant cope up anymore.. i dont know how long it will take and i am already 25.