Assalamu alaikum wa rahmathullahi wa barakathahu..
I am feeling ashamed of myself for not praying properly, especially fajr. When i was in my native place i had a mosque near my house and my dad used to wake me up for fajr.. i got used to that and i felt good whenever i pray 5 times a day. Now i am in dubai working for an IT firm and i often sleep late at night like around 1 am.. even if i get to sleep early i am unable to wake up for fajr.. The Alarm goes on..and on.. sometimes i deliberately cut the Alarm and sleep again and nowadays its getting worst.. i wakeup at 5 am and say to myself.. look i am tired and Allah knows that so its ok to sleep.. and lie down again..
I am really sick of that.. the whole day when i miss my fajr seems to be the worst day.. i kind of feel some numbness and ungrateful towards my Creator.
I ve been under a lot of depression recently (http://www.islam.com/questions/13318/she-left-me-heart-brokenbetrayed-and-with-huge-weight-of-guiltit-hurts) and for the last few months i am trying my best to get closer to Allah SWT.
I feel the happiness only by getting closer to HIM and whenever something stops me from praying or whenever i do something bad i immediately get into the state of depression and prolonging stress.
Please help me to figure a way out of this.
May Allah forgive all of our sins and grant us Highest place is Jannah. May Allah's peace be upon our Prophet Mohammed and his companions and all of us.