Hello brothers, i was wondering if you could please help me out. I have been very stressed and worried lately and that is why i decided to post a question that has been pondering on my mind as of late. Please do not judge me on the following. Basically i have been seeing a girl lately. I have gotten a bit intimate with her a few times ..kissing and some really close hugs (May Allah forgive me InshAllah). My biggest worry was that... recently, we got little too intimate. Basically, i got her to feel me up a few times in private part a few times with my pants on. She grabbed me quite hard a few times and eventually i came too (AstugfurAllah). My intention was not for me to release anything, i just don't know how i let this happen. I am ashamed that i am even making you read this. I was too nervous to stressed out to even google for answers. Once again, please do not judge me. I have just been really lost lately and that is why it came to this. I just want to know if i have committed zina. I am very depressed and will repent as much as possible InshAllah. I want to know how big of a sin i have committed and what I should do. May Allah fogive me InshAllah and reward you all.
- A very worried brother