Brothers and sisters, I have this problem of thinking too much about my past sins. Before I went to sleep, I would think about it. Right after I got up from sleep, it hit me and I started to think about it. When I'm out, I kept thinking about it. Basically, 24/7 I've been thinking about it and it's keeping restless. It's been like this since months of March 2013 which makes it a long time for a depression. This is the longest depression that I've ever had.
I've repented and trying to move on. But now I just can't think of other things. It became a habit to think about my past sins. I became depressed, weird for being myself and it's bringing me down.
Please, can you help me how do I need to go through this? It made me anxious, depressed and paranoid all the time. How to stop thinking about it? Or better yet thinking too much about it? I heard it's good to feel this way because it'll remind you so that you won't do the same mistake as the past but this is too much and it's killing me. Thank you and sorry for all these troubles.
Jazak Allah Khair
Wa 'alaikumus salam wa ra'hmatullahi wa barakatuhu wa maghfiratuhu. Dear brother/sister in Islam, the first thing you need to realize, is that Allah sub'hanu wa ta'ala forgives all sins, if one sincerely repents. Allah is our creator. He loves his slaves so much! He should not only be feared, but he should be loved also. Allah says in the Holy Quran Chapter 39 Surah Zumur verses 53-54: (O Prophet) say: “O My servants who have wronged their own souls….Do not despair of Allah’s Mercy! Surely, Allah forgives all sins. He indeed is the All Forgiving, All Merciful. Return to your Lord and submit to Him before the scourge overtakes you, for then you may get no help from anywhere.”