About a year and half ago, I met this Muslim guy and we connected straight off the bat. He was everything I wanted in a man. He was 3 years older than me. One thing led to another and eventually we started to date. As time went by, he started doing little things to hurt me, like flirting with other women, or talking down to me including swearing and left me on several occasions.
I became extremely depressed over him and had to go to the hospital. I became so emotionally and attached to him that I feel there's no way to leave. A year and half later I'm still in the relationship miserable than ever. We broke up lots of time but somehow found each other again.
My family knows about him but his family doesn't know about me. I always try to led on him on the right path with Islam but he doesn't listen to me. I always try to encourage him to be a better Muslim but that doesn't work out. He hurt me alot(emotionally) and I need to get out but thinking about him with another women breaks my heart. I cry about it everyday..I
m trying so hard to be closer to Allah right now. I need to find peace and happiness within my religion. Im 20 and Ive always wanted to get married in my early 20s but it looks like its never gonna happen now because he turned out to be a different man. He manipulates me so much and puts me down with his words. I regret all of this and not walking when I should have. When I try to leave him, he flips the switch on me.
All I want is for him to acknowledge what he does wrong and what he has done to me in the past. I can
t go on like this anymore. My heart is in alot of pain because Im so in love with him but this isn't what I signed up for. I committed myself to him and he can
t do the same. Please dont tell me I
m young and I should be focusing on myself and school. I can do both. Im really mature for my age. I just feel like If I let him go, I`ll be alone forever.