AssalamoAliekum, I'm a 20 years old boy from Pakistan and I'm not sure if my problem is a "problem" or I do need to see a psychiatrist.. The thing is that I don't feel alot towards feminity.. It's not that I'm gay, or that I'm isolated.. It's just I don't think I feel the way I should feel about women..
It's like, my friends and all the people, they're like watching these dirty song videos and exposed bodies and when I ask "What do you gain from this lust?", They give me weird looks and say it's natural in this age to feel excited about this "anti-gender" attraction and if I can't feel it there's some hormonal or mental problem with me..
It's not that I'm a neat and clean person I watch movies myself, I do all the entertainment but when it comes to girls I mostly try not to look at them.. I'm new to university and I've faced co-education for the first time and it's like everywhere I notice there are boys tailing girls and making couples.. It all makes me feel insecure, not because I don't/can't get a girl for myself, but because I feel worried about them (worried in a way that what if they don't get to marry their boyfriends/girlfriends, they would be impure towards their original life partner)
So the insecurity I actually feel is that what if I get a girl who's impure.. Who has been in such relationships before marriage and the thought of "my wife in relationship with other guys" kind of hurts.. I know its not my age to think about such stuff but I can't help myself, the way these people are doing these things I don't think there'd hardly be a chance I get a clean girl..
How do I keep myself safe from such thoughts, how do I put my insecurity at comfort?