I'm feeling so depressed I've lost all my faith in my deen I don't feel like praying anymore I just hate my life and myself I'm feeling suicidal if I didn't have kids I would consider ending my life I can't understand why my life has to be this depressing.
Depression is beyond my competence, and it would be dangerous for me to say too much. I can say that depression is more than simply feeling unhappy or fed up for just a few days.
Those who are depressed feel persistently sad for weeks, even months, on end. Depression is not a trivial matter, but a real illness with real symptoms. It is not a sign of weakness, or something a person can ‘snap out of’ by ‘pulling themselves together’.
Depression affects people in different ways and can cause a wide variety of symptoms, ranging from lasting feelings of sadness and hopelessness, to losing interest in the things they used to enjoy, and feeling very tearful. Many people with depression also have symptoms of anxiety. There can be physical symptoms too, such as feeling constantly tired, sleeping badly, having no appetite, and complaining of various aches and pains.
If you have any of these, and if they are persistent, then please see a doctor without delay.
I hope this helps.
May Allah (Subhana wa Ta'ala) give you peace of mind.