I'm a Christian and I'm seriously considering conversion to islam. However, there's a number of things that make me hesitate.
Before anything, I acknowledge the possibility that I could simply be going through a phase so I've resolved to follow the lifestyle of Muslims for one year before I truly embrace islam. That would also force me to do my research on what I'm getting myself into.
First, I'm still dependent on my parents and previous interactions with them suggest hostility towards Muslims. Long ago, my parents mentioned that they would be proud if I became a priest, especially if I became pope. When I joked that maybe I'll be an imam instead, the conversation quickly became serious with mentions learning the techniques of bomb making. My mother's blood pressure is increasing lately and I don't want my conversion to be the cause of stress that would ultimately kill her. A recent bombing incident involving self-proclaimed muslim terrorists did not help matters.
My siblings are less of a problem: my sister is exhibiting atheist tendencies. My brother doesn't seem to care for that and only cares for blatant disrespect but my other sister reacted badly. She has shown the capacity for physical violence and taking matters of discipline into her own hands before and I fear for my well being if she finds out.
Next, I share a room with my brother. I've been trying to do my fard prayers including fajr but the dawn alarm is beginning to disturb him badly. I would prefer a more subtle approach. On that note, any suggestions in squeezing in dhur and asr prayers in school are welcome: they frequently overlap with prayer times. At home, when I don't have classes, I prefer to do it in my room when my brother is out drinking or working but my sister is becoming suspicious of me locking the door. Currently, I'm doing them in our warehouse but now she's becoming suspicious of my daily visits.
I know diet will be an issue as well. I've been trying to eat halal and Im known not to drink alcoholic beverages so no problem there. Unfortunately, at home dinner time usually consists of at least one pork dish. While avoiding it and going for something else is easy enough, sometime only pork is served. I've been making excuses not to eat dinner in such cases but I think my parents are becoming suspicious when I opted for the fish dish instead of my mother's pork chops: I'm known for my hatred of seafood. This will become especially problematic once Ramadan comes.
I know I can't hide it forever. I'm thinking of letting them know once I'm independent. Until then, any advice?