my problem is i have been into dominant women lately and i like to get used and abused by women, and be inflicted with pain is what i like. I spend a lot of my money on them just for them to use and i gain satisfaction in this even though i'm not rich but a normal working man. I don't feel i will gain satisfaction in having a sexual intercourse with them.
I want to settle down, get married and live like every other human out there. My younger brother got married yesterday alhamdulillah and i didn't attend the wedding, just because people will ask when are you getting married. I have no answer for them but to say pray for me inshaallah one day. I want to get married but i can't. Please help me