Assalamu alaikum, thanks for your replies it really helps .... Number 1 (caabi) what you wrote about the (sihir) i do not think he has done (sihir) on me .... he is Swedish guy, they do not sihir .... I was touched by what you wrote you are so right I can not say anything .. I just feel bad because I'm weak against the Shaytaan ... I have chosen and get to know him, he just can not have done sihir it is impossible ... this I have decided it's my fault, reason that I pray when I'm with my family's for that I will reminded of ALLAH and automatically I start praying, but when I'm with him I will not think at that, the only thing I think is just (sex) SubhanAllah = (.... it is terrible ..... I has always been like that, thinking about sex, I can not handle, it feels just do it, do it ... I know I'm a terrible person ... I've been like that even when I was 8 years old, I did (zina) is so strange .... but clearly I've noticed that I do (zina) with him and then I do not know why I did it and how it happened ..... but my last x is from latin america he was a Muslim but now it has been 3 years and still when I happen to see a guy on the street Just, then I direct his picture in my head, but I do not even want, I can not control .... I have tried several times married me just to forget this (kaaafir) but it is not ... . one of the reasons is that I do not find exactly the man I want .... but Khair inshallah ...... I will do everything Inshallah to obey ALLAH ...
Thanks a alot..........
The question has been closed for the following reason "Not a question." by goldPseudo May 09 '12 at 18:56
Dear my sister in Islam, there are ways to control your desires and your feelings because it is Allah Whom have created these feelings and desires in us and for surely to control these desires to know how could only come from Allah, so search how to control your desires from Allah and upon your heart to it as it is your heart that is connected to your soul which receives from what you feed your heart to it, that is why Allah says, [Those who have believed and whose hearts are assured by the remembrance of Allah . Unquestionably, by the remembrance of Allah hearts are assured] [13 v28] Allah here Has giving you the secret of how to control your desires and feelings and how to over come the shaytan and that is remembering Allah by different ways just like Allah says, [Those who have believed and done righteous deeds - a good state is theirs and a good return] [13 v29] Allah here have said those who do righteous deeds He will protect them from all kinds of ways and protect them from committing sins and will protect them from the shaytan.
Allah say, **[Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves] Allah here is talking to your heart direct and saying that if your heart wants change then Allah will fulfill it for you because one can not change unless they make the intention of wanting to change from their heart.
My dear sister I will also give you one more solution to begin with so your heart will be of those who remember Allah much and that is the saying of Allah, [Every soul will taste death. Then to Us will you be returned] [29 v57] Remember death much as it will destroy your desires and feelings which you are using it wrongly, because once you come to realize that sooner or later you will die then you will see your whole world differently because you will fear that Allah may take your life away while your sinning and committing zina and you will realize that what will my desires do for me when I know am facing death soon and will be buried six feet down under and that the two Angels will come and question me and how will be my grave will this man be there to save you or was he just having fun with me and took advantage, and then soon you will face Allah.
My dear sister these are my advise to you how you would over come this problem you have and how you could cure your heart and your soul and I hope you get better from this soon Insha'Allah.