I have found out that my husband has been watching dirty videos online. I knew he used to but I had thought that after we performed Hajj he had stopped. I was shocked to find out that he continues to, the first time I found out was when I was expecting our first child, Alhamdulilah I had a smooth pregnancy and our doctor never forbid us from getting physical till the very end. I was shattered as I was going to a huge physical and mental change whereas on the other side my husband was watching naked women. I went ahead and confronted him about it, but he got angry and said it is normal guy behaviour, every guy does it and it is insignificant.I tried to explain him how hurtful it is as a wife when I am always available in the next room but he couldnt understand and we had a huge fight. I moved on and thought things will change once he becomes a father. Now after our childs birth I found out that he still does that. This time it has really hurt me, knowing that this is what my husband is indulging in when my baby and I are asleep in the next room. I dont understand why he cant come to me if he has any desire because I am through my recovery period. He chooses to do this when I have went through so much physically and I have never said no to him since we have gotten married. I have lost respect for him as he always claims that he wants to become a daee. I have been so disturbed since I found out that I dont want him to touch me. I feel like leaving the house when he is due to come back from office so that I dont have to look at him. Please advice me what I should do.