I will relate to you my story so you will grasp what I am saying more clearly: when I was 16 I always had this dream to be hafiz (not for fame,not for respect, just for Allah, believe me). So I memorised 2 juz myself without a teacher. But there were so many problems primarily due to my mother. She created a big fuss that "I would become a 'maulvi'; she threatened me that I am forcing her to throw Quran out of the house; on another occasion she discussed how ashamed she was of me that I used to be a normal boy (playful in that context) in front of my grandparents and aunts, then I cried but my granddad consoled me; she flared whenever she heard my Quran recitation saying that I was showing off (I tried to recite in as much solitude as possible to avoid this misunderstanding as my father also blamed me that it was due to my showing off that she was mad, by Allah's purest name he knows my intention); when I got my O level result ABB she said it was my fault for being too distracted by memorizing the Quran. I cried sometimes and held my faith. Then at one point I became scared and left memorizing. I always avoided even reciting Quran. Can you believe it I left Quran for 4 years?
Now here I am and just last week Saturday I got myself a teacher (I guess Allah listened to me and gave me the right moment) and I have again started memorizing Quran with proper Tajweed (20-15 ayah's in one hour, and I presumed my memory had declined with age) and I thank Allah he brought me back to the book. My heart literally ached without it (I am not sure why).
But whenever I recite Quran now and my mother appears, I put Quran away. Thats why I got hifz-e-quran lessons (online) in the morning when parents sleep.
Dad did nothing but at least he didn't speak ill.
I don't know if I should recit openly? Because if I do they get 'distrubed' so morning is the best time. I try memorizing out of my gaze of my mother. Should I keep reciting and memorizing like this? Should I stop cause paradise is under feet of my mother?
Answer please as I am not sure if i should even recite at home esp in front of my mother.