I'm a seventeen year old girl who is feeling very double minded right now. I like this boy and we have been talking for a while, we kissed recently but I don't know if what I'm doing it right or wrong.
After I kissed him I did't really know whether I felt guilty or scared of being seen. I'm so confused on what to think because the guy is so lovely. And I would never go further than that because I know that it is strictly haram and have no intentions of that kind. He also understands that i am not interested in abything like that and we both thought that kissing would be okay. I would like to call myself a fairly religious person as I like to do my prayers and i have a strong faith in Allah (swt). So please could someone tell me if this is wrong because I know that kissing can escalate onto other things, but but would never allow that to happen. I also feel guilty that I haven't told my mum, I don't like to keep things from her as I have a very close bond with her. But I know that if I tell her she will lose her trust in me.
I also don't know if I should feel guilty for kissing him but I'm honestly so Confused. Please could someone give me guidance thank you x