I like woman but i dont think i appreciate that allah created woman, I think its because I dont hang around at all with woman, or talk to them at all(it is haram anyway to mix with woman for fun or to be friends). When i think about adam and hawa (as) i get abit depressed that allah created woman, because i have this feeling that no woman might marry me, dont know why, therefore i get depressed but i DO want to be with women and get married to a woman? so can somebody please tell me what are the qualities that woman(pious) like? I want to get married do i have to look handsome because i am not really attractive and i am small. should i make myself taller so that there is more chance of getting married? What kind of men do women like?
Also I want to have sex but i get sad regarding sex? I dont like the idea that allah created sex with man and woman but i really want to have sex because alhamdullillah allah has placed these desired in us human beings and animals when we were being created.
3.Also when i think about that allah created sex with man and women, and when i think about these things i find it very disturbing or extremely erotic that male and female genitals are meeting together. Is this normal or do even married couples get it or is this whispering from devils?
- Also so why do i get this weird feeling when i see men and woman having sex, i get a squirmy, uneasy feeling, cant describe it what is this feeling? When i look at haram things(sex) or imagine about adam and hawa that they are mates and therefore do very close things together like sex i get a strong feeling of sexyness and shamefulness is this normal or waswas from shaytaan? or is this how allah created us
weird questions but if you answer them properly ALL of them then isshallah i hope these will be out of my mind