Assalamualaikum! For almost a year now I have wanted to wear a hijab. I don't know why but last early summer (2013) I had the thought of beginning to wear hijab. To begin, I began wearing full sleeves full time and I wear full length pants. I try to be modest as much as a can. During that same summer, when Ramadan came along I felt that I was ready to begin to wear hijab. I kept on telling myself that I would do or the next day but I kept on postponing it. One day in August, I decided that Shaitan had whispered in my ears for long enough and finally plucked up the courage to do it. My mum, little brother, my sister and I were about to leave the house, when I put it on. I had the confindence to do it until my mother asked me what I was doing. I told her about my intentions to wear hijab and I think she became worried for me. My mother is a hijabi herself but I think that she became worried that I would be bullied (I am currently in the seventh grade, I will be in grade eight in the autumn) in school and I will not he able to defend myself properly. I know my mother means no harm, because I am quite a sensitive person who takes some things to heart. But I thought that I could do it. That day, I didn't end up leaving the house with my hijab and I felt so very guilty. I didn't want to worry and displease my mother but I also don't want to displease Allah (SWT). Ever since then I have always had the urge to just do it but I never regained my confidence until now. I think that now I am much more capable of defending myself and my entire group of friends are all Muslim and some wear hijab even though we live in the western society. I need help on what to do with my situation. I want to commit to wear hijab this summer but I do not want to worry my mother. I am afraid to talk to her about it even though my mum and I are best friends. I love Allah and I love my mother but I don't want to disappoint or worry either of them. I love to wear hijab when I go to the masjid and when I pray at home. I think hijab is a beautiful thing and I admire those who have the courage to wear it. Please help me! I don't know what to do.
P.S. I want to begin wearing it this summer because I feel that it is the right thing to do. Also I believe that the older you get, the more difficult it is to begin. I think that the summer holidays will give me time to ajust to wearing hijab before the new school year begins in the autumn.