Ok, so I am 15 and before Ramadan started I was going through a really depressive state, I was also living on a borderline eating disorder though I had not known it back then or during the start of ramadan. During Ramadan, my eating disorder unknowingly, only got worse and I became addicted to restricting. I would break my fast with half a cup of water and 400 calories maximum (terrible I know) and over exercise(burning around 200-600 calories average), sometimes if i was able too and felt i ate too much i would force my self to throw up. I recall myself fainting, collapsing several times over the course of fasting yet remained adamant to not break it. I then collapsed in front of my parents who have also noticed that my eating was irregular. My dad took me to my psychiatrist who I had seen for my depression, after 12 days of assessments (this was also around 2 weeks into Ramadan) I was diagnosed with Aneroxia (even though I am not underweight, I had lost 2.5 kilos in 18 days. I was told I had to stop fasting and eat regularily. I did under the pressure of my parents and doctors but only did so for 5 days then I went back to fasting, despite my doctors objections. Now Ramadan has finished, in total i have fasted around 18 days. Is that bad? i know i can make up for the others, but im very unhappy i was forced to break my fast for half of ramadan. Also, were my sypmtoms really enough to exempt me from fasting. I live in Britain so my doctor was not a muslim by the way.
Sorry for the long paragraph i just needed some guidance and needed to know if ive done any wrong doing as i feel desperately guilty.