I"m a teenage girl and I've always wanted to wear hijab even though none of the women on my mom or dad's side of the family do, but after deciding to wear hijab my mother has become furious with the way I've started and has disowned me. Ive cried and cried and have felt so depressed, I already have to face wearing hijab in public and at school and try to overcome those challenger but now on top of that my mom has said she will not support me whatsoever and feels as if I'm only doing this to spite her. She says the ONLY way she'll ever forgive me is if I take off my hijab, after I've already officially put it on and told my family and friends. How can I face wearing hijab in a new town and at a new school when I cant even face those at home. My mom feels she has been too soft on me in the past so she's putting her foot down when it comes to me wearing hijab. I've prayed and prayed and prayed but I feel like nothing is changing or nothing is getting better. I've even spent the past hour or so looking for ways to commit suicide online. I thought that because I'm being a good muslim and doing this for Allah SWT that I would have his support and that I'm doing the right thing, but listening to your parents and having your parents blessing is also stressed in Islam, which is what my mom keeps reminding me about.
Am I doing the right thing by basically "disobeying" my mom and giving up my relationship with her to wear hijab even thought I'm only 15? or even thought its completely against my heart should I follow her commands and take off my hijab?