Helpppp I dont know what to do

Asalaam'alikum. Looking at you choices think about whats best for you, I'm not amongst the best of characters but my advise to you is this. Families can bring immense pressure that most people are not good at handling. Maybe your getting grief from home not because of what your doing, but its approach. if all of a sudden without discussing anything you made a life changing decision it sometimes can question your trust of the close ones around you. even iv made bad decisions in life. and yeh at times it did feel like the weight of the world was on my shoulders but hard times always pass. Personally I would stick to your alimah studies. because you will become a guide over those that need guidance(people like me). and for every deed they do from what you have taught you too will gain their reward. Dont worry too much about people looking down at you. Once you graduate as an alimah every person in the community will look up to you. they'll soon forget this episode. I would see it more of gods test. and should you pass it he wil reward you greatly as promised.

Bismillah walhamdulillah. Learning knowlegde of is important. as a human being we have to learn. If not, we do not know how to think, read, write, and so on. Moreover knowlegde of religion (Islam) and the Al-Quran especially. Rasulullah s.a.w said to say, "Which is better among you are those who learn the Qur'an and teach it." And the learned of it, darjat (rank) with Allah s.w.t is the glorious heights. As word of Allah which means, "Allah explained (to all His creatures with the arguments and evidence), there is no God (worthy of worship) but Him, Who was always thin (all natural) justice, and the angels and the people of knowledge (acknowledge and affirm, too), there is no God (worthy of worship) but Him the Almighty, the Wise. "Surah Al-i-Imran: 18. By then, efforts forward, pray to Him and put their trust completely to Allah, the Most Merciful. InsyaAllah. Wallahu'alam.

Well, I'm Christian but I can tell you as a person of faith that God decides when we go and there's a possibility that since you took your life, your soul will not go to Heaven though I don't know this for sure. Listen, God doesn't let us go through anything alone and He doesn't let us go through anything we can't handle. I don't know what the Quran says but the Bible says that we don't go through anything that hasn't already been gone through by someone before us. So trust in the Lord that He knows what's best for you and that even though you may not feel Him there with you, He is. He loves you and He knows what He's doing. Don't take your life because you may think that this life is bad but there is an infinte amount of suffering in Hell and you'll wish that you'd just stuck it out here. Let God guide you and don't lose heart, you're loved.

Perhaps God has other plans for you. It sucks when you don't know where to go so pray to God for guidance as to what you're to do and don't let insecurities decide how to react. If God tells you to go somewhere, He'll provide you with the strength you need to get there. He loves you and you must believe that in order to trust and obey. You're precious to Him, you wouldn't be alive if He didn't have a purpose for you. This will help you grow but you must trust Him and the way to start is by saying, "Lord, I dont know what you put me in this world to do but You do know so I ask Lord that You'll lead me to the place that You want me. I will not worry and I will not fear anything or anyone but You."